Lost

I am lost and mad as hell at the world. I am angry and tired of being afraid to be alone, I want to be someones joy or love or even heart, I am afraid to be alone, in a lonely existence, I am afraid of showing my true feelings because it never feels right so i can not openly cry for you, I can only cry in the shower , I can only think of you all day long, I can only imagine the love I lost when you left me , I can truly love you for the time we shared, But I am still so lost with out you being here.