MEMORY

MEMORY IS A TRICKY THING IN YOUR BRAIN

WHY

WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?
WHY DID GOD TAKE YOU?
WHY HAVE I BEEN MADE TO SUFFER?
WHY AM I BEING TESTED?
WHY DO I QUESTION HIM?
WHY IS PRAYER SUPPOSE TO MAKE THINGS BETTER?
WHY AM I STILL HERE?

WHEN

WHEN WILL MY MY HEAD STOP FLOATING
WHEN WILL MY HEAD STOP HURTING
WHEN WILL MY HEART STOP HURTING
WHEN WILL MY LIFE STOP TURNING
WHEN WILL I STOP SHAKING
WHEN WILL MY RECOVERY BEGIN
WHEN WILL I FEEL LIKE THE OLD ME
WHEN WILL LIFE GET BETTER
WHEN WILL FAMILY UNDERSTAND MY SUFFERING

WHEN WILL IT END

WHEN WILL IT STOP
WHEN WILL IT LEAVE MY HEAD
WHEN CAN I JUST LET IT ALL GO
WHEN WILL I FEEL NORMAL AGAIN WHAT EVER NORMAL IS
WHEN WILL PEOPLE STOP STARING
WHEN WILL THEY STOP JUDGING ME
WHEN WILL MY KIDS ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM NOW
WHEN WILL MY FLOOD OF TEARS TURN TO HAPPY THOUGHTS
WHEN WILL IT END
WILL IT END WHEN I TAKE MY LIFE OR WHEN I JUST DO NOT CARE ANYMORE

MY OWN PERSONAL BUBBLE

THE SOUNDS OF PEOPLE
THE SOUNDS OF MUSIC
THE NOISE IN MY HEAD
THE WHISPERS AND STARES OF PEOPLE
EVERYONE WANTS A PIECE OF ME
EVERY ONE SPEAKS AT ONE TIME
MY OWN PERSONAL BUBBLE
THAT IS SUPPOSE TO PROTECT ME
IN MY OWN SPACE AND TIME
I TALK TO PEOPLE FOR HELP WHO IO FEEL DO NOT UNDERSTAND
I EXPRESS
MY SADNESS AND PAIN IN MY LIFE
I CRY AND RELIVE IT LIKE IT WAS MY OWN PERSONAL DAY OF HELL

WHAT DEPRESSION MEANS TO ME

D-DESPAIR
E-EFFECTS OF OTHERS
P-PAIN
P-PERSONAL FEARS
R- RELENTLESS SADNESS
E-EFFORT TO LIVE
S-SUPPRESSED FEELINGS
S-SUSPICIOUS OF OTHERS
I-I HATE MYSELF
O-OWN MY OWN FATE (THAT'S A REALLY MEAN JOKE)
N-NOISE IN MY HEAD